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[04 Oct 2008|06:11pm] |
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music |
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loves Pandora!!! |
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I dont understand what is wrong with me. I thought this was what i wanted that it would be better for me. Why do I do this? Im never content with the relationship im in and then when it ends i just want that person back again. I need to stop having idealistic expectations of what i want in another person, because then im never satisfied with what i have. I need to learn to appreciate them while i have them and not think of what i could have or what else i would want. But im not gonna play that role anymore feeling sorry for myself and engage in the constant dwelling its not healthy i just need to let it all go and realize thats how he is, he always has to have someone maybe hes shady sometimes but thats how he tries to move on from things hes weak im strong i can move on from this for get it all. I dont want to be angry, just numb and detached.
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| Bad habbit of mine |
[24 Mar 2008|08:15pm] |
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 apathetic |
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music |
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The Smiths |
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dwelling on the bad from time to time
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| School |
[07 Oct 2007|02:19pm] |
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the dishwasher |
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The longer you've been in it, the better you get at it. Learning routine, formats, what Professors expect, how long you know you can procrastinate shit, study techniques, going in to office hours so your professor knows the face not just the name. If only i could go back to high school i would dominate and blow my 3.6 out of the water, because high school was sooo much easier than college, but i think im gonna do alot better this semester. We'll see
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| Sara is leaving me |
[04 Feb 2007|06:10pm] |
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I dont know how im going to fucking survive this semester
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| Yesssssssssss |
[15 Dec 2006|05:28am] |
Im very excite about being in vacaville for like a month starting tomarrow, well technically today.
but anways just letting everyone know
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| Back to Chico |
[27 Nov 2006|06:13am] |
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music |
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yeah yeah yeahs |
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ugghh....
back to hiding in my room
back to hella doods in my house
back to my shit being eaten/driken
back to the smell of dank 24/7
back to nobody doing dishes and a gross house
back to the stress of everything school related.
However, i am also back to sara who saves me from chico and its chiconess and i dont know what i would do without her.
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| Honestly |
[03 Nov 2006|01:28pm] |
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Sometimes I feel I compromise myself for Chico, and i dont like it.
I am in no way close to the mentality of the majority here in Chico, but at the same time i dont like it. Italy if you do come, can you please come faster?
Lately my procrastination has reached all time hights, and i feel so unproductive, i need to start getting on top of things again.
ps. im glad i will be in vv this weekend, im glad to be away from chico for a while
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| My brothers wedding finally lol |
[10 Oct 2006|12:28am] |
It was at a winery in Sonoma and it was so beautiful
The Maid of Honors speech
Groomsmen and Ushers and the cute little ring bearer
Bridesmaids and Flower girls
Entire Wedding party! it was really big but it rooled!
and My favorite....
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| So My Night |
[04 Oct 2006|11:20pm] |
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music |
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Beer Pong |
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I open my front door to about seven dudes in my living roomm, who i dont know, who are obviously my new roommates friends, but he is nowhere to be seen. Then I walk into my room to start my 4-6 page paper with which i have to incorporate about five different things, where my window directly faces the backyard to hear my roommate along with at least about five other people playing beer pong. And to top everything off, i managed to get gum on my diesels and juicy jacket at the same time.
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